NEW LIFE.......

Such a dog’s age I din update my blog, I need to catch up with my syllabus, a lot of thing need to do for this semester, need to worry along with my study. I know I’m not smart enough, so I need to put more effort if compare to others. I just realize that I had a lot of things need to update for my stalker, I had a new life and new goal.

Let start with the beginning of the semester, me and my gang went for a trip at Genting for 2 days one night, which is the time for us to relax and prepare ourselves for the ACCA exam. I had take the opportunity for ‘visit’ the casino with SUSHI, actually nothing special inside the casino because I seldom gamble and the condition of the casino is terrible, many people smokes inside the casino, damn hate it. Two days one night quite rush because we just had some activities only at there.

The following week I went to Kampar with Yang Chuan to meet our Diploma friends. Since Karen’s birthday I didn’t meet them for few months, miss them a lot. This is the time for me to update their info and their gossip. Many of them changed to be another person, I quite surprised when I met them. They brought us went to IPOH (sing k, eat the local famous food,shopping), Sungkai (water park, sauna) and also GUA Tempurung (exploration inside the cave). I had experienced a lot the life style at Kampar.

Back from Kampar, need to catch up the study again. We all like fighting for a war, all of us study like ‘HELL’ for the same purpose and same goal- win the war (pass the ACCA internal and external exam). I stay at library everyday from 8.30am until 7 or 8 pm. Everyday gone through the same life style, which is meaningless. Sometime I want to give up but instead of thinking give up why don’t I put more effort to get a better life for the future. This is what I told myself everyday to continue such life. I really hate to study but what can I do, I only can choose the way by persevere it every day. “Damn it ACCA-torturing myself for study”

If not mistaken should be 18 of June, I attend an revival event-“Awakening for Jesus”, the Pastor-Philip Mantofa give a talk which make me feel that I’m ready to be with Jesus Christ , I will change my life style, I will not be pessimism anymore, I must be optimism, try my best to do all the things, be happy always, no need care about people’s appraise about me, just ignore them. I no need scare to be single or alone because GOD always be with me. I LOVE YOU, GOD. Praise the LORD-Amen.

Week six, such a terrible week because need to sit for the midterm test soon, need to study all the time, totally no time for entertainment. Everyday use to be same, go library study for the whole day, library become my second house at KL, almost 12 hours per day I stay at library, really suck my life. But I will not give up, GOD always remind me to study, give me support when I need HIM.

Finally the entire midterm test had passed, but the result should be not as good as I think. But I had put all my effort to sit for the test, so no matter how the result will be, I will accept it optimistic. After finish the last test, rush to KLCC to buy a present for Mic(my hou heng dai) at kl TARC, after ‘shop’ for 2 hours, we decided to bought him a CK sweater. Finish buying then rush back to hostel to change clothes and need to arrive at COLA CLUB before 8.30pm because I had promised Shannon to help her set up the birthday bash. I can feel that Shannon had done a lot for Mic for the birthday celebration. Although Shannon always ‘Bully” Mic in front of us, but she really love Mic. I hope Mic will happy with the surprise party organise by Shannon.

Next day, take the 12pm bus back to hometown for holidays. Friends, I will update my blog when I’m free. See ya…




P/S: Shannon, sorry cox I din help u much at the birthday bash.

到现在还放不下对方吗？

傻孩子，到现在还放不下对方吗？
傻孩子，到现在还想着对方的一点一滴吗？
傻孩子，有些人、有些事、我们可能偏偏放不下。
傻孩子，我来给你做个试验：
你拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。
你烫到手的时候是马上松手了吗？
知道我想说什么了吗？
这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。

傻孩子，
忘了吧，所有你留恋的，你回忆的，你拥有过的。
那些，都已是记忆。
缺失并不可怕，
可怕的，是无法面对。

傻孩子，
你无法轻易忘记放弃，是因为你付出过。
付出了，她就会像柱子一样扎根在心。
不要刻意去逃避，刻意忘记，那只会让你更痛苦。
绕开这个柱子，寻找未来的幸福生活吧。
那里，有你的理想。

傻孩子，
开始新的习惯吧。
习惯，每天一个人生活。
习惯，一个人过生日、一个人行走。
习惯，走过熟悉的路，面对熟悉的景。
你逃不掉，逃不掉的。
那么，就勇敢面对，现实。
现实是，一切，画上了句点。

傻孩子，
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧，
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己，
这也是你，成长中的你。
这个你，正在逐渐死去。
新的你，即将重生。
寻你的路，你的未来。
你知道的，所有的浩劫，都是成长的祭奠。
做最好的自己，即使，一个人。

傻孩子，
好好，尽情发泄吧。
剥开自己的心，用文字、用声音、用所有能发泄的方式。
泄完了，就要振作。
看吧，你失去的，其实微不足道。
还有那么多人关心着你，以不同的方式，
所以，你并不孤独。
正是这样的失去，让你看清现在所拥有的幸福。

傻孩子，
别哭，别再哭，
不值得，真的，不值得了。
把过去尘封吧，别委屈，别不甘心，别不接受。
开始新的旅程吧，去遇见新的风景，新的际遇。
做你该做的事吧，有很多事，等待着你完成呢。


傻孩子，
生活褪去了曾有的颜色，暂时宁静。
别沉沦在这片宁静里，那会毁掉你。
你要明白，虽然残忍，但这个决定，足够正确。
现在的生活，不是你想要的。
为了你的理想，你必须学会适时放弃。
给对方最好的关怀，就是，变的更好、更强大、更幸福。

现在我对你很好、很好很好，你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。
当某天，你被伤害，想起我，你就会明白了。

所以，当你不想和别人去交往的时候，要对对方好一点，不要让最后的结局成为一个恨字。
即使你不喜欢对方，也不要拒绝对方的一切，因为你没有权利去把对方伤的遍体鳞伤。
不要去拿你不喜欢对方来说话，即使你不喜欢，也别去做伤害对方的行为，要知道，伤害也许会到心里面。
好好的对待对方是最好的，以后的时间是很长的，既然缘分让你们相交，记得珍惜。

有时候放手了
可能你就轻松一些了
记得要让自己高兴

bad mood.............

just call my dear...get her password for the blog, i promise not to read the draft, but i cant make it...i read about 16 draft of the blog, some related to me some related to another guy.

donk now why after i read, my heart feel pain, i cant breath for the moment,i feel upset, no point for me to wait a girl for 3 years, what hell i get in the end, ntg..i get ntg..

i feel hurt but i cant let her go, what must i do, i totally no ideal, i knew that i still manage to go through all the matter, i knew that i still love her, i will wait her. but in the end, will i get her???i no ideal for it.

feel bad mood now, tml going to genting, wish can forget all the matter, enjoy the trip......

GOD BLESS ME>>>

Nice song---love it

叮噹 - 我愛他

他的輕狂留在 某一節車廂
地下鐵裡的風 比回憶還重
整座城市一直等著我
有一段感情還在漂泊

對他唯一遺憾是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好

我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來

我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他不再屬於這個地方
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐

如果還有遺憾 又怎麼樣呢
傷了痛了懂了 就能好了嗎
曾經依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢狠狠碎過卻不會忘
逃不開 愛越深越互相傷害
越深的依賴 越多的空白
該怎麼去愛

我愛他 轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞 都不肯醒來

我愛他 跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他不再屬於這個地方
最初的天堂 最終的荒唐

如果還有遺憾是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚都停不下來
若那一刻重來 我不哭
讓他知道我可以 很好

MC- I always think of you..u still inside my heart!!!i'm still cant let u come out from my heart even though i know u hurt me a lot. MISS YOU..LOVE YOU..

Come to the end of the internship.........

END OF MARCH....

Go to Ipoh to attend Wayne birthday party. Feel great there cox having a nice gathering as well. At that night, a big crowd there include us, his relatives and also his hometown friends. The next day, we heading to the famous dim sum house"MING GE", this dim sum house very special, same as Hong Kong style as well, dim sum there very nice, i ate a lot there. Meet my secondary schoolmate there,Zues-Swee An. He look 'huge' if compare to Chinese New Year that time. After that heading to buy some local souvenir then going back to KL. When arrive KL already 3pm something, then we go back to hostel for rest a few hours then go out again to attend the sweety-siew see birthday bash. The celebration held at THE APARTMENT, which is located at KLCC. The condition is quite romantic and the food very delicious. During that time, my best buddy argue with her BF-MIC(now become my best buddy),but after that settled by themselves.


APRIL

Cheng hoe birthday celebration, held at PV3, our hostel, all the geng had been invited to attend. Buy cheng hoe a secret cake and take photo with the geng. feel happy that time because that day is 01.04.2010-April Fool. The next day, attend my best Buddy-Shannon surprise party at Feeling Cafe(Wangsamaju). Follow mandy car back to hostel and heading to the cafe. Shannon feel happy of the celebration because her BF-MIC doing a great job, he bought a "COACH" bag for Shannon, somemore order a special cup cake for Shannon. During that time i can feel that Shannon almost cry and feel touch. I bought Shannon some make up stuff since she love to make up. After one week, is my birthday celebration, it was held at 4 season, Shannon book the winter season for me. Since i know the location one day in advance so i already knew it, but i still very surprise when i saw many my friend attend my birthday bash. The crowd is about 20++ people, they all really good, cox some of them was coming from finish working, feel touch. PEI FEN- which is the one who give me the most surprise that time, i cant believe that Shannon will invite her to attend. I really appreciate it, SHANNON, thanks you, cox u and mic have waste ur time to plan and organize the birthday bash for me..thanks again..Love u two. By the ways, thanks for the birthday present-IPOD shuffle.
Finish the birthday marathon, then continue to work again, continue with the internship, follow the different senior for the different job, start learning some new job, Chris and Sook ching, this two senior teach me a lot, especially CHRIS, you are the one who never angry me although i always asking you question. Thanks Chris.

Begining of May

Last week of internship in Horwath, plan to do many thing when back to hometown. Get a bad new from mummy and she was cry when called me, my lovely grandpa was passed away, feel bad cox i cant attend his funeral, but i know he wont angry because he is the one very kind and easy to forgive people.Grandpa, i wish u happy always even though u at another world. Please bless all your son and daughter, and also all ur grandchild.

Finally settle all....

hello...I'm back.Feel that wanna update the blog with my current life.

January:

Study...almost every day go library to study, these 3 subject make me feel gonna crazy-financial reporting, financial management and audit. Study at library is working cox if not i will sleep at hostel without doing anything, wasting the time.
Go library with the gang- shannon, wayne, cheng hoe, yang chuan, han yi, joo ann, mic, yih ying and ah ci. Although finish study, but i still don know what I'm reading and doing, totally blank in my brain. Try my best for the final revision.Nothing happen in this month, just waiting exam..For the first paper, financial management, i din do a question about 25 marks cox totally don know how to calculate. I think mostly will fail. forget about it, waiting for the second paper.Financial reporting, also same, din answer a question, 20 marks gone, but i know that i will pass. The final paper, audit, make me feel crazy. The question totally same as past year but i din read at all, so i just do what i able to do. Finally finish all the subject, now waiting for internship soon.


February:
Internship.........
First day intern, but I'm late, luckily din get scold. The HR Department staff-Jessica lead us walk along the company and explain us all the department. First day i already in the staff schedule, i need to go out with senior-phui mun, a gal senior who stay at PV6 so she always fetch me here and there. Follow phui mun audit the LCCI International Qualification Sdn Bhd. This job need 2 weeks to settle it.

After one 2 weeks, when back home for the chinese new year celebration. Help mummy do a lot of thing. But finally all done because when i back ady wanna new year.arrive alor star airport about 10 something, then go back to new house. The next day, din go anywhere, just sit at home and go for the secondary meeting in front my new house, ROCK Cafe. The decoration not bad but too many people there. Meet shannon at there and other secondary schoolmate. This gathering only have about 10 people.(zeechee, jane, renee, gan, alastair, cqiang, wchun, cxian. lwei, sliang) I never meet them after go college for further study.

The next day, go to Grandpa house with mummy. Feel not bad this time cox saw many people there. Many of my cousin come back for gather. Chit chat with cousin then back early cox stomach pain. After that almost everyday stay at home waiting finish utilized then applied leave. Plan to help mummy in her business, but something bad had happen, my grandpa passed away. Insists of handle the stuff, my mummy also need to do the business, cox all thing had ordered. So me and my lovely sister help my mummy do all the staff. finish the 2 day stuff then go to the funeral. In the first day i go, i fall in a faint cox feeling not well. Then my dad send me to hospital. The funeral finish and i cant see my grandpa for forever. I miss you grandpa.

March:

After finish all, come back to kl to continue the intern, need to follow another senior, SAM Kuan, a nice senior, taught me a lot.always give me advices when he free. The company audited by us-Sterilgamma (M) Sdn Bhd is a big company, have 5 subsdiary. We need to do about 2 week to finish it. Following the job is ASMD(Terengganu) Sdn Bhd. I need to go Terengganu for the audit job. The senior still same which i follow SAM Kuan. If not mistaken i have a new job for the following week. Hope i will enjoy it.
In March, have many Friend celebrate their 21st Birthday, so need to spend a lot. The first one is CHIT CHIT, my roomate, i just treat him eat Shabu one. Then Yang chuan them buy a cake and celebrate with him. This celebration very simple but for me it very meaningness. Will go to ipoh tml for Wayne celebration. Must enjoy it tml...

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Final is coming, the revision still not yet finish. Don't know how to continue the studies. I already wanna give up because too tension. I cant cover it by the giving period is too short. Besides that, nowadays i still confuse, whether the decision make by me last year is correct or not, no people can consult me with the decision. WHO..WHO wanna be the angel to consult me. what can i do, who can tell me.??

Is thinking the memories of year 2007 to 2009, although this two year is very short, but it very meaningful for me. In this two years, i gone through many thing. From a teenager change to an adult, this all changing happen because by somebody(dear). I really miss u so much, until now i still cant let go, my heart is still thinking of u, only u can make happy, we break up already one year, but u still inside my heart, u are the gal who can fulfill me, when people ask me why still wanna wait u, i cant answer it, maybe this is Ur power or strength.

Starting fall in love for u is November if not mistaken. That time u still have boy friend, i do not give up, i wait u until u break up with ur boy friend. After that u still have another option, u very attractive so u have a lot of fans. I don know whether i have the chance or not, but i know and i trust if a person is really love the girl, one day the girl will accept the guy.

U finally accept me at 25 December 2008, i really happy. That night although i already drank but i still awake. I know that finally my action have touching ur heart already, u trust me that i will give u happiness, but the beginning have bring a lot of problem after this.

We two always argue and i always wanna break up and i have make u cry many times. I know all this will happen because i not trust u, and u do not wish to change ur attitude. I wish to change u to become a good girl, but finally i fail. This mission will be continue by somebody. I already miss out such good opportunity. I wish the following guy will lead u to a correct way. GOOD LUCK guy....

DEAR, i don know u still have follow up my blog or not, i just wanna express my feeling here so that i manage to continue my life. Although i already not ur dear, but u still in my heart forever. LOVE U DEAR...

2010.. WILL START A NEW LIFE............

WOOHOO!!!
happy new year to my beloved parent,siblings, my buddies and u.....wish all of u dream will come true this year.
In this 2010, i have a lot of thing need to cover up.Before that, yesterday,31/12 i stay at hostel, nothing much can do, my 'lover'-classmate invited me for celebration, but i reject it. The reason i reject not because of no money, is because i still waiting and hoping will receive a meaningful call from u, but in the end i end up with disappointed. This new year i stay with my house mate and also my lovely god sister. We chat by msn until the 01/01/10 arrive. I just get a lovely god-sister last few day. she very cute and some more very good in "manja".Feel happy have such a good sister.

In this 2010..i have many thing need to realize it...the first thing try my best to help my mummy to do all the stuff...i miss u so much,this sem break will try my best to stay at home accompany u..
The second is cover up all my studies. i need to pass all my subject in order to do the internship. this 3 subject make me crazy like hell.so need to study hard.
The third, i need to forget u a.s.a.p..i will start my new life, i will try to be friend with u...don wan argue with u anymore. this is wat i promise u,dear.
the fourth..the fifth..a lot and a lot....will cover it here later.

new update...........

long time din update my blog....a lot of thing need to express..

just finis all the mid term,a bit heavy for me to cover it. but i know i need to do it..cox i m wai loon. i need to do all my best to cover or handle all the thing and stuff. finishing the test, going to greenbox having a singing moment, also a time for me to relax. i need a lot time to relax, to release my pressure, my tension, and also my worried.

finis the mid term, need to cover the assignment. but luckily all the group member very co-operates. they all hv do their own part. only one person, the blur blur de always do the wrong thing, so we din ask him do ady...

this coming week need to work.siew san get me a job as a promoter for the fisher and packel. the job very easy, somemore the fair only a a few ppl know only, so we just get a few sale, not as much as we think at the last days. everyday when go working drive the khai jing de car, so four person will devided the expenses. i think this work we will get about 300++,but still waiting for the news...hope can get as wat we think.

finis working the fair for three days, then need to do the presentation, a lot of thing need to cover, i need to chase back the time that i was working. i do the assignment and do the presentation. i hv cover all the stuff in 3 days times.finally i get all the thing done. then going for training for the coming week job. doing as MSI laptop brand-promoter. i become the highest sales person in the team. i think i should be proud for that moment. but at last i loss something. once i get something, i will lose something.i think thsi is wat the god hv set for me.haix...damn sad. finis the pc fair and getting to prepare the presention for tuesday, finally i finis the presentation with the 'duck' voice. damn shit.....

today, i make ppl angry, i din hv such intention.but i hv done, but i feel ntg,i don know wat he is thinking., just ignore him. i think he will be ok de. so..act like ntg and continue slep...haha

slep tight.........good nitex all.........

Mistake again...

Today, i think i hv done something wrong....haix...i sms with u dear,but i hv ask whther u alone or with fren...but u tell me u alone...but i know u with ur bf...haix....after that u din reply me...swt........don know why u wanna lie???but i cant confirm it..may be i think too much...but anyways, is ok la...sms with u i feel very warm,don know how to describe the feeling,feel like hv met some miracle,don know why..anyways,i just hope u happy only,other not important at all..really,wish u happy always....love u..muacks..

Clubbing.......smoking.....dancing with gal.....all i hv done....

Yesterday, go clubbing with my housemate and classmate.The feeling quite good,very enjoy.About 10 something we ady go out.Take a taxi and arrive at klcc the walk to POPPY.We late because all of them ady arrive there.Once i go inside, my classmate lead me and bring me walk around the club.My first impression is the place very nice,have a little swimming pool,have bar a nive bar tender and so on.Then my classmate introduce some friend to us.12.30,the club started have a big crowd,many people start dance at the dance floor.That time i din blur yet,so i a bit shy there. After i drank, i started dance with many gals.I hug a few gals,got two gal i hv ask their name,one is nicole and another one is stephenie. Both good in looking.haha..Dancing, drinking, almost enjoy a lot.Going back about 3 something to 4..bath then call DEAR,talk a lot.But i forget wat i have talk already.

Today, i know many thing,i realy hv change a lot.

Totally moody at all.....

Today wake up a bit late,so forget to bring along my ic!!Luckily at college the guard din check my student card. Going to DKC attend the financial management lecture!!Damn bored the lecure. I only manage to focus one hour only, the left one hour i just fly away with my heart. I promise myself i have to study hard, so i will start by next week lo.!!Aza aza fighting!!!!

Just now my nephew called me, sudenly feel wanna back alor star, i a bit homesick.MAybe just come kl one week, i aleady miss my home so much.Miss my mummy, my sister and my nephews--sian sian and tan tan.I damn  miss u all.!!

Dear!!!i miss u so much.Wanna sms but not dare to do so.!! I know you already have new life,so i cannot go and disturb u. I just can put u inside my heart, i don care whther u know or not,i wanna keep u in my heart.DEAR--i wish u happy always.LOVE U..MUACKS

Tommorow will go clubbing, with my housemate and classmate,wanna be poor already lo, but i  still need to go because i don wan put aeroplane anymore,since i already put them twice.HAHA..hope tomorrow will have fun.Forget all the sad thing and problem. All i will handle it with my heart.

Tomorrow will be more happy then today.GOD BLESS ME!!!LOVE u all......nitex...muacks....

Moody!!!

Wake up 8 something,dont know why this few days cant sleep very well. Everyday slep lately but wake up very early, totally no energy. Dear, still enjoying ur holidays??? How was ur life there??GOOD??BAD??BORED?? I become alone.!!Really..feel like no friend already,i don know whether this will happen because of my own problem or other??Maybe i change a lot!!maybe i change to be another person??I totally no idea at all.The hostel become cool,no body inside the hostel,i just live for myself,nvm.Just patient for this 2 years, after that i can become more relax. This two years, i come to face u, i will try my best to be independent, no need take care people feeling, just do what i want,live for myself, not other.REMEMBER, LIVE FOR MYSELF. Other not important.I have sms with u DEAR,i knw u quite good. That for me already enough. I din hope for any futher relationship, i just wish and pray we two can have a good time everyday.

DEAR:i love u so much..maybe u don knw.I don know whether u still have read my blog onot, but i sure that this blog belong to u and me..really!!!i will continue write the blog till i find my true love.Dear, when u have problem just tell, noneed shy or scare that i will laugh at u.

YLOON:u have to start study lo..cannot be lazy,if not this sem u will be in trouble.gambateh!!!aza-aza fighting!!!!

爱多深痛多久---东来东往

歌曲：爱多深痛多久

歌手：东来东往

那句话终于开了口
幸福还没让我尝够
眼泪就快要忍不住
眼泪怎么会忍不住
一起的沿途
没有想象中的快乐
甜蜜也是屈指可数
不想自己回忆太多
可痛又怎么忍的住
从前我一直不服输
现在我不得不服输
你宣告结束
画面痛的太过清楚
连最后的可能都被排除
爱多深痛多久
心越痛泪越流
流到你走以后
剩我一个人舔伤口
爱多深痛多久
越痛越不放手
等你走远以后
剩我一个人
爱了太久
不想自己回忆太多
可痛又怎么忍的住
从前我一直不服输
现在我不得不服输
你宣告结束
画面痛的太过清楚
连最后的可能都被排除
爱多深痛多久
心越痛泪越流
流到你走以后
剩我一个人舔伤口
爱多深痛多久
越痛越不放手
等你走远以后
剩我一个人
爱了太久
我一直相信深爱是永恒的理由
离开的借口是爱的不够
爱多深痛多久
心越痛泪越流
流到你走以后
剩我一个人舔伤口
爱多深痛多久
越痛越不放手
等你走远以后
剩我一个人
爱了太久

feel very sad...still miss u..love u so much.........u knw???i knw u don knw......haix........

Feel all gone...nth left for me...feel wanna cry...who care me???

Finally finish the exam,now start my long journey holidays,about one month!! Feel excited,because finally have time meet my lovely baby-karen.!!haha!!when planing going to penang,i get a new from my buddy jing,he told me my lovely baby already have new boy friend. Such new make me feel very sad, unbelieveable, when i get the confirmation from her, finally i realize that she totally not understand me, she say that she knew that i already give up,but who know?? I totally damn miss her, i din give up from beginning till now...but finally i think i should let her go!!Let her gone through her new life,i cannot be so selfish. Maybe i and karen totally no fate at all,who knew?? Baby---i still miss u alot..u know...???

My good 'heng tai' come from penang to alor star, i accompany them one day one nitex,bring them eat a lot of food, let them know that alor star have many nice food, they very satisfied with all the food. Feel happy can meet them. i din meet Aijia about 3 month ady, finally can meet her, she always my best buddy, my soulmate, for forever!!!

Finally the mooncake festival pass, i finish my work, Damn tired everday wake up about  5 am,not enough slep at all, but help my mummy work make me feel satisfied because i can accompany my mummy gone through the market life. Although a bit hot and tired, but i still manage to continue it, till the end of the festival. Give myself 100marks...haha..accompany mummy go penang, go market,whole day non stop working.

3 of october,suppose back kl today, but i postpone to tml,my buddy jing will fecth me back tml, so still one more day can 'lepak' at hometown. Accompany my sister go shopping, go here go there whole day. At nitex, my sister ask me go out eat tomyam but at last me. sister and her friend-FEN go BANGLO have a drink, go there till 12 am,we chit chat a lot there. Know many thing from my sister and FEN.Arrive home about 1 am.

4 of october, going back today,supose start journey at 5 but postpone to 6..so have one more hour to chit chat with mummy,suddenly miss mummy, this time really feel wanna cry, i know i will miss mummy alot. Mummy work very hard although she old already,mummy..wait me 2 more year,i will give u alot money so u no need worry and can stop from working hard.Arrive kl about 12am..damn tired when finish keep up my thing.!!

i don knw how to face u Baby,i know u come kl..i not dare to meet u up.i still love u so much,but i will pray for u,i will wish u happy always.Baby,hope one day we still have the fate to be couple again.Love u baby.

New semester start again, first lecture ady skip.not dare to think more,haix!!!!have to keep my mood and feeling and start study!!Cannot lazy o,now de me,left nothing,all gone!!!No more best buddy,no more target, no more goal,live for what???no mission!!hope doomdays quick arrive!!!!2012,i waiting for u...this is wat i think i knw,no more people will care me, will help me even i have problem.God!!bless me...Thanks....

lame post.............

普通的 VS 真正的


一個普通的朋友從未看過你哭泣。

一個真正的朋友有雙肩讓你的淚水濕盡。

 

一個普通的朋友不知道你父母的姓氏。

一個真正的朋友有他們的電話在通訊錄上。

 

一個普通的朋友會帶瓶葡萄酒參加你的派對。

一個真正的朋友會早點來幫你準備並且為了幫你打掃而晚點走。

 

一個普通的朋友討厭你在他睡了後打來。

一個真正的朋友會問為什麼現在才打來。

 

一個普通的朋友找你談論你的困擾。

一個真正的朋友找你解決你的困擾。

 

一個普通的朋友對你的羅曼史感到好奇。

一個真正的朋友可以威脅你說出來。

 

一個普通的朋友在拜訪時，像一個客人一樣。

一個真正的朋友會打開冰箱自己拿東西。

 
一個普通的朋友在吵架後就認為友誼已經結束。

一個真正的朋友明白當你們還沒打過架就不叫真正的友誼。

 
一個普通的朋友期望你永遠在他身邊陪他。

一個真正的朋友期望他能永遠陪着你。


who r my best???i think u will knw by urself.............

Alone..................sad..............

爱恨分明不吃回头草

                白羊座的人爱恨分明，爱就是爱，恨就是恨。不过Ａ型白羊，对「恨」这个字眼没多大兴趣，他是不爱就是不爱而已。在爱情上，白羊是相当乾脆的，不喜拖泥带水，属於行动派，要求立见真章。他们最不能忍受一厢情愿。凡是白羊决定不要的东西，绝不会再捡回来，否则他无颜面对自己。不吃回头草，也是白羊座人好强的证据。由於白羊座对爱情具有童话格，要求纯洁、唯一与童稚心的恋情，与旧情人复燃爱曲当然是白羊座不屑的。谈恋爱时，白羊座的人是不会骗你的，大可放心。但是他的爱意来得快，去得快。除非你有超强的吸引力，一旦一头白羊陷入不可自拔的情网时，你要抽身，也就很难了

                This one very accurate,but izzit i'm the exception for it. I still cant do it.Don knw why. I ady try my best not to think and miss u,but don knw why yesterday will forward msg for u,this make myself fell ashame.I said i wanna forget u, but in the end i cant do it. I try to tell myself that u ady at so far from me, we two ady not couple, u ady hurt me so much since first time we dated, but the mind will come out all ur images. Haix, i really love u too much,why can be like that???Notwithstanding from the way we talk i will strictly and rude, but my heart still love u so much. i knw u will knw when u read this, but i still hope i can control myself and we still good fren.......

FRIEND FOREVER...u and me..........

when u see saw it, just reply me a comment.........thanks...

Start make myself busy............

This few day , always stomach ache , don knw why.....hope ntg will hapen..i try to do many thing...to forget u..........but don knw why no use at all. Inside my brain , all is  ur thing , our memories , all will come over my sense. How, why u so attactive???why?? i really wanna forget u  de, but really cant...ady many days i din call u..din sms u..i think i can do it..Since u ask me to let all go...but i still cant study...haix..u make me in trouble la...

TEOWWAILOON-----Start study lo..now wanna week 10 ady..........gambateh lo...still can de...

我的星座

白羊座

  白羊座的人令人觉得他开朗而热情。即使他内心是有那麽点害羞，表面上仍可以很自在大。方当一头白羊愁眉苦脸时，只会出现在他家里镜子中。他再伤心，就是不会在别人面前摆出苦旦脸。好强？可以这麽说。谁不好强呢？其实白羊座的人仍会向朋友吐苦水，但真正的眼泪，你是看不到的。一群朋友，开开心心的，在阳光下嬉耍，是白羊座最怀念的美好时光。悲郁的人生绝不是白羊座的人所向往的，不幸陷入时，他也会极力设法让自己不要太相信会就这麽过一生，他全心希望有一个新生活。
  爱恨分明不吃回头草

白羊座的人爱恨分明，爱就是爱，恨就是恨。不过Ａ型白羊，对「恨」这个字眼没多大兴趣，他是不爱就是不爱而已。在爱情上，白羊是相当乾脆的，不喜拖泥带水，属於行动派，要求立见真章。他们最不能忍受一厢情愿。凡是白羊决定不要的东西，绝不会再捡回来，否则他无颜面对自己。不吃回头草，也是白羊座人好强的证据。由於白羊座对爱情具有童话格，要求纯洁、唯一与童稚心的恋情，与旧情人复燃爱曲当然是白羊座不屑的。谈恋爱时，白羊座的人是不会骗你的，大可放心。但是他的爱意来得快，去得快。除非你有超强的吸引力，一旦一头白羊陷入不可自拔的情网时，你要抽身，也就很难了。那将会是悲剧的下场。你也得不到好处。
  乐观乃天性不是不悲观
白羊座天性乐观，但长大後遭遇到的事了，他们也会悲观到了极点。只不过悲观归悲观，既然不想死，活下去就得乐观点，日子才会有趣些。因此白羊座的人只不过是不把悲观当一回事，并不是不悲观。而他们乐观的天性极具感染力，你得稳着点，以免误陷入一塌糊涂的乐观绝地之中。白羊行使侠义的性格，使他能结交许多剖心相见的朋友。但是他对朋友的要求也很高，不少人受不了白羊座对朋友的殷殷期许。自然啦，白羊对情人、对丈夫（或妻子）、对同事，也都有些标准在心中测量。与标准不符时，他便会觉沮丧、食欲不振。现实的人永难成为白羊座人的朋友。
  爆发型的浪漫　
白羊座的人当然是漫的，但是是属於爆发型的浪漫。公羊、母羊皆如此。一点一滴积出来的浪漫，对白羊座来，强度不够，只觉累赘、厚重，这种浪漫容易分叉、断裂。白羊座喜欢在庆典的夜晚，与情人并肩仰望烟火在夜空中爆放出光芒万丈，而那也正象徵着爱情发生的瞬间，浪漫不过了。当白羊座处於浪漫的瞬间，几乎没有什麽事可以挪动他们的感性。浪漫过後他显然全已清醒，接下来端看那瞬间爆发的浪漫，到底能在他的记忆中存留多，久才能知他到底有多在乎曾经发生过的感动。因此，你也可以推论出，工作、事业、婚姻、友情都不在白羊浪漫的范畴中，他对这些反是以细水长流的方式经营。「徒步越过爱琴岛是可能的，你只要逐岛跳过去就行了」
  嗨！我在这里 
必等到风吹草低见牛羊的那一刻，你便会远远看到有只羊在拚命蹬踢他强健的小蹄子，在半空中跳跃，向你打招呼：「嗨！我在这里。」是的，白羊座的人就是这麽令人觉得他开朗而热情。即使他内心是有那麽一点害羞，表面上仍可以很自在、大方。当一头白羊愁眉苦脸时，只会出现在他家镜子中。他再伤心，就是不会在别人面摆出苦旦脸。好强？可以这麽说。谁不好强呢？其实白羊座的人仍会向朋友吐苦水，但真正的眼泪，你是看不到的。一群朋友，开开心心的，在阳光下嬉耍，是白羊座最怀念的美好时光。悲郁的人生绝不是一头白羊所向往的，不幸陷入时，他也会极力设法让自己不要太相信就这麽过一生，他会全心希望有一个新生活。
  正经八百的，会要他的命
白羊座出现在高贵、华丽的场合中，不会显得格格不入，但是他自己却难受得要命，因为他不能自在地跷二郎腿，不能在高兴时放浪形骸。正经八百的，会要他的命。一般社会上流行的娱乐，白羊座都能欣然加作，但是他本来就有的独特娱乐品味也不会放弃。也就是说很爱听歌剧，但也喜欢到卡拉ＯＫ高歌一曲。基本上，白羊座的是很雅、俗共赏的。他们的适应很强，但又随遇而安。在白羊的心中总是有一个更好的天堂在等着他。白羊座的人对於生命力旺盛的人，特别注意。他喜欢被专家领导，不会随便怀疑，一旦怀疑便打入十八层地狱。而他成为专家时，也不要随便怀疑他，如果你不能拿出令他心服口服的证据，你将永不能再从他那里得到训诲。
  若不能举足轻重，宁可自动消失 
白羊座的人常因过度自信而冲动行事，又因冲动行事失败而自毁信心。对白羊座的人来说，叁思而後行是比较好的。在一个团体中，白羊座若不能举足轻重，他宁可自动消失，并且不会以任何藉口。消失就消失了，这里不是我的王国，他把自己在团体中的角色看得很重，相对地也愿意承担更多的责任，他不会认为自己可以不劳而获。一旦劳了还是没有获得的时候就绝不恋栈。他的自尊心强，你的一句「老实说」会伤他的心许久。如果你问他会不会表演空中飞人，他心中盘算自己应可胜任，便会点头，答应你一个後的表演，这一个月中他就会勤加苦练。而对於自己没有把握的事，白羊座的人是不至於去强出头的。
  爱情是一生中最大的课题 　
白羊是很容易不耐烦的。在恋爱中，你得把那些小把戏收藏起来，他可受不了什麽「考验」之类的事。既然爱他就应该信任他。不管公羊、母羊，他们对爱情都是十分认真的。对他们来说，爱情有两种，一种是真的，一种是假的。假情爱情，极易发生在冲动而善感的白羊座身上，但很快会结束，并且会像是从未发生过。真正的爱情，是白羊座一生中最大的课题，他总觉得这个课题怎麽写也写不完整。友情与友情是白羊座不可或缺的两大支柱。当爱情没着落时，他们可靠着这两大支柱中的任一项，发展他的事业。即使他十七岁时就有了结婚的对象，但到了七十岁若未结婚，他也仍在心中保有一个结婚对象，这是他的乐天知命所使然。
  相信小精灵的孩子 　　　
仅管白羊座的人长得人高马大，他仍是个孩子，他一直保有天真的一面，即使长大了，他还是相信世界上有小精灵的存在。有时白羊座的人相当幼稚，可是他绝不是不聪明，他的反应可快得很呢！他有带头当第一的强烈欲望，做第二免谈。所以他做起事来动作很快，甚少优柔寡断。他非常自信，深信自己处理事务的能力无人可及。他也从不向命运低头，仅管挫折一次又一次的出现。他信任所有的人，很少会去怀疑别人是否会对他不利，而他的勇敢也使他能不断地站在最前面。与白羊座的人相处时，你必须注意一些重要的关键，他是个喜欢争先的人，这是所有白羊座的天性，所以有时你必须要有心理准备。他说话或做事都相当直接，很少会跟你拐弯抹角，他也相当诚实，只要一说谎就很容易被人察觉。他是个不擅处理细节的人，所以，如果你想请他处理些较细微的工作的话，倒不如自己做还来的恰当些。

new life..........

start from today, i will live without you...i don knw whether i can do or not...but i will try my best to forget u...U...will come out from my life....forever ever..........start study lo....cannot like that la...i need study hard......gambateh..Teow Wai Loon.i knw u can one........

Hope can get what i want.............

I jus learn this from a movie , when a couple can gone through these all , sure have the ending they want . No matter how far , or how difficult , they will be facing together , think together , and settle together . When i will get this kind of partner ??? Who can tell me ? Izzit i not good enough ?? I will change when u wan me to change ... I hope i can get the ending as the movie ....

传说中有一种植物要想爱的人才能栽种 ,

经过日出日落 , 炎夏寒冬 , 风吹雨打, 

方能掉下幸福的种子.

This song very nice , if something belong to u , if will own by u in the end . If something not belongs to u , watever u hv done , it still will missing.

属于-梁静如

我堅持的都值得堅持嗎
我所相信的就是真的嗎
如果我敢追求我就敢擁有嗎
而如果都算了不要呢
或許吧或許我永遠都不會遇見他
或許吧或許我太天真了吧
屬於我的昨天之前的結局
我決定我的決定
屬於我的明天之後的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
屬於我們點點滴滴的傷心
我們要各自忘記
屬於我們閃閃發亮的愛情
我們再一起努力

屬於風的那就去飛翔吧
屬於海洋的那就洶湧吧
屬於我們的愛該來的就來吧
為什麼不敢呢 不要呢？
是他吧命中早就注定了的那個他
是他吧他原來就在這裡啊
屬於我的昨天之前的結局
我決定我的決定
屬於我的明天之後的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
屬於我們點點滴滴的傷心
我們要各自忘記
屬於我們閃閃發亮的愛情
我們再一起努力

屬於我的昨天之前的結局
我決定我的決定
屬於我的明天之後的憧憬
我迷信我的迷信
屬於我們點點滴滴的傷心
我們要各自忘記
屬於我們閃閃發亮的愛情
我們再一起努力
屬於我們點點滴滴的傷心
我們要各自忘記
屬於我們閃閃發亮的愛情
我們還要努力

new posting----my life

Tired..don knw wat mus i do knw...although got study everyday...but i don knw wat i’m doing now...study cannot concentrate...slep not well...why all this will happen to me...still hv 6 more weeks...i mus gambateh ..but no more power...how???who can help me....don knw wat the reason i do such thing..swt....i become change to another ppl...really...more n more worst...but at least got one thing din change..i still love u....don knw why...this feeling very strong...i hv ask u before...u wan me again???but u din answer me...i knw ur answer ady...ur decision is rite..u at Kampar..i at kl...u need ppl to accompany u..i cannot so selfish..is the time to let u go..when u find somebody who treat u vey good and love u...jus go ahead..nonit worry about me...i can handle it very well....nonit think of me...gambateh my dear, hope u can find ppl who love u so muc....i need to find back my study mood....study..study...study...my objective. Shot for the target..pass with colourful my final exam.......aza-aza fighting...............

Dear.........love u..............

Song for u-my love

蓝色背景的天空

衬托着谁的美丽

白色云朵又经过

轻得像谁在呼吸

这样简单这样自然

我想我能为谁勇敢

只因为你懂


阳光晒过的温柔

是你给我的回应

很想了解你更多

想让距离更靠近

我的期待像一个城堡

我想要宠坏你一丝一毫

请你别说NoNoNo

我爱上的唯一

我爱上的纯净

你所有姿态就是喜欢

像是舞蹈在世界心田


我爱上的唯一

我爱上的纯净

你所有的好多么重要

许个愿望因为是你


阳光晒过的温柔

是你给我的回应

很想了解你更多

想让距离更靠近

我的期待像一个城堡

我想要宠坏你一丝一毫

请你别说NoNoNo

我爱上的唯一

我爱上的纯净

你所有姿态就是喜欢

像是舞蹈在世界心田


我爱上的唯一

我爱上的纯净

你所有的好多么重要

许个愿望因为是你


我爱上的唯一

我爱上的纯净

你所有姿态就是喜欢

像是舞蹈在世界心田


我爱上的唯一

我爱上的纯净

你所有的好多么重要

许个愿望因为是你

是你

a new and nice song....this show how i love u...how i care..only u will knw...love u....

Sharing Issue...........

其实很多男孩子都不知道，
 
女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。

实很多男孩子都不知道，
 
女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，
 
也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。
 
你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。
 
你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她，
 
在别人面前她都是淑女。
 
你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，
 
让她即使生气也不会超过2天。
 
而这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。

　　
于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。
 
于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。
 
于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着的无奈与幸福。 
　　
要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。
 
因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。
 
因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；
 
而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很久。
 
你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔碎。
 
你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候却只留下伤害。

她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，
 
因为真正值得她哭的那个根本舍不得让她哭。
 
她会很矜持，
她会很骄傲，
她会很冷淡，
她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一直叫你留下。
 
 你了解女孩吗?  
  　　
请你张开你的耳朵，
也请你打开你的心，
去听她心里真正的呼唤，
而不是她嘴里的口是心非。
 
她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，
 
你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；
如果你喜欢她，请你多让她。
如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。


在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。
 
可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；
 
爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。
 
你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。
 
不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。
 
你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。
 
不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，

更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。

要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。
 
越是安静战火就越深，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——
 
无论是怎么的复合，那些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。
 
请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。
 
她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。　
　　　
请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。
 
也请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，
 
只要你喜欢她，就喜欢她的一切一切。
 
那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。
 
也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的真心话。
 
她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道谦。

请记住，如果，她不喜欢你。

Hope u all enjoy read it......

hang OUT wif classmate.........

Yesterday.........first time hang out wif my classamte...one of them is my ex secondary schoolmate...we decided will gang out for a movie---ICe Age. THis movie very funny..we laugh almost one and the half hour during the movie. Then we go shopping a while then go back..Inside the lrt..pheijoo hv make a funny thing..she shout very loud..ppl surrounding all look at her...feel very embarrassed. This time not the least but jus a starting point for us...hope can hang out always...

finally all settle

assignment....test...all finis............

dear...today i miss u..but i hv to control myself not chat so muc wif u...if not...haix..cant think anymore...today i upload photo o...this very meaningful for me...u and me..only one capture wif happiness,nice smile and love between us...hope u see it...

finis test...

Finally..the test over........

so happy cox i knw tat i sure can pass.

today...i miss u alot...don knw why...when only can i forget u...

haix...continuing like tat i will become crazy....

start doing the individual assignment...don think too muc...aza-aza fighting..don let myself fall down...yoyo...sure can gone through de...gambateh!!!!!!!!!

diploma convocation

26 of june

Back from kl to alor star at 26 of june..almost 12 midnite ady..daddy ady wait me at the toll.Feel happy see all the family member.BUT..my sister hv trouble again...i will help u to settle it.nonit worry my dearest sister. Slep at 3 something and wait up at 6am. finis preparing, fetch my fren and go penang-TARcollege..I'm coming. when reach there, i saw many fren there...feel appy to see them..the person i always miss..MC..i saw u..u look different, u make me wanna hug u tat time. u can fullfil my feeling tat time..i really miss u so muc. After that, going gurney for lunch, taking sushi as my lunch wif my another gang...Jia them. the sushi very delicious. i hv the intention not going take lunch wif them, i don wan see MC. i scare i will sad when meet her. After tat. going bac to alor star. On the way going bac, i hv go to sp taking my present, a bouquet of flower. Arrive house and chat wif mummy them. at nitez, i taking the photo wif all the family menbers. i hv realise my dream.so happy...i miss u so muc at nitez..i hv chat phone wif u..u make me feel happy and sad.

27 of June

Early in the morning. wake up at start my journey. but i hv stop at sp for taking a nap cox too tired. When arive penang, i go fetch u..so excited to see at u. we hv chit chat a lot in car and when arrive college, saw all the fren ady arrive. so happy met wif them. i worry my parent cant arrive at the time, so i call them a few time. Finally all can be done in. When i at the stage to get my scroll, jesus them called my name, make me feel shy, but i knw tat they jus happy and excited. i oso very happy. After that, go to MC house for taking a bath. When at their house, i knw a lot of thing. she hv many fans..james khor..james lee...and so....i realize that i should give up ady. if i still continuing like that. i wont get anyting in the end. i very sad, at gurney, she wanna talk wif me, i don wan chat so muc wif her, i scare, i will jealous. cox james khor beside her only. i knew tat james khor start fall in love wif her when standard six. So many year ady..so i tell MC mus treat  him very good. i oso knw tat everyday beside me, many boy oso got chat phone wif her, so why i need to do such thing. wat promise each other mus have a msg before slep...all this jus a excuse. i really scare, i feel like izzit she treat all the guys oso like tat, so it is unfair to all of them. so i choose to let her go..Let her choose her own life. After tat, i fetch yun and joo go bac sp.

At nite, i chat phone wif fren, my fren told me many thing about er, i so sad. don knw why, i cry.but i din let my fren knw. i mus be tough enough. so i clos the phone. i msg MC and tell her tat we no more fren. maybe by using this way i can be more happy. More easy to forget her. let her come pit from my life.she ask me why?? She say she don like in this way. But i din reply her.I jus ignore all.

28 of June

Wake up quite early, pack all the thing prepare to go back kl. I ady sick.Feel very suffer.Inside the bus, she msg me then i called her. i tell her all the thing i knw. i jus knw tat if i din do so, i will very suffer. i hate u...u make me in trouble. about 7 somthing, arive at kl. she msg me whether arrive or not, i clled her tat i ady arrive.i Promise my self, i wont call her anymore, i oso wont msg he anymore. GOD!!!!u mus help me..give me power to do so. So i wont regret once day.

STOP DREAMING!!!STILL HV MANY THING I NEED TO DO..GAMBATEH FOR MY FUTURE...MUS DO ALL THE BEST FOR MYSELF SO I WONT REGRET ONCE DAY. THIS WEEK HAVE MANY THING NEED TO DO,,,ASSIGNMENT...TEST...

ok..stop here. when free iw ill upload some photo for you all...take care all my fren..i miss you all...

-meat ball(yun)

-jesus

-phaik ji

-abuba

-wuang ching

-ai jia

-Mc(i wanna forget u in my memories)

U all mus gambateh o....miss u all and love u all....muacks.............................

ady 2 week at kl.........

KL....no good as i think..i still cant put myself into the new life....God!!!please bless me.MC..u..still in my mind..don knw why..i wana forget u...so suck..u make me in trouble. i still beloved with u la..u knew??this week..i study a lot..i seldom study so muc..but this time i really need to study..cant play anymore...i miss my family member..miss all the fren at penang..i miss u all...finally i feel the painful when missing someone...how???wat should i do??i jus need to be patient and wait the time pass every moment. time to time,i still cant forget all the thing happen in penang. i think penang is more suitable for me to alive. Penang..u so nice..so peaceful.this 26 june..i will bac o...i wanna do many thing..but i only hv 2 day.one day at hometown..one day at penang..i ned to fully utilised the time.cant even waste one minute.AFA.i will beat u..i will pass all the paper.i will safe. now still cant on9 in hostel...i ned to come down mcd for on9, so swt. but the feeling quite good lo.i will update next time. mei chen...only u knew my acount..don let other knw. thanks...

miss u so muc....

 Almost six week I din update my blog, blogging become my life at here. I ady pass my last sem exam with colourful result. This is the first time i get A’s for both subject. This is because the both subject are fully course work. Now i ady at kl tar college, the life very suck, not as good as i think before i coming here. Before the AFA list come out, i almost worried everyday, i scare that my name not inside tat list. When i check the list wif my eyes, i really happy although my name is inside last few sheet of the list. The happiness jus for the short period, jus for 2 days, then i becoming scare, the AFA not an easy course, is a pressure +difficulty+ tension de course. I hate this course, but now ady can not regret. I ady choose the road, so i need to continue it. This make me feel cant breath at all. This is the main problem tat i need to settle it by my own. This problem must be settle ASAP. Beside this, i still cant forget a person. You, will come out from my mind everyday, although i din msg u, din call u, but u still in my mind. I try to not call u at all, but i cant do it, this make me in trouble again. Why u cant come out from my mind, i don wan tell u all this thing cox i knw u will have ur new life there, so i hv to control myself to avoid or stop myself for disturbing u. But one thing i keep in my heart, i wont forget u. U r the one who i love you so muc. You oso make me change into a freshman. From a terrible guy become a good guy, so now i ady become a freshman, i will start my life without u. I hope u will see this when u knw my url. I wanna tell u that although we ady break, but u still in my heart. I don knw how to forget u...forget our relationship. I really hope tat we can continue this relationship ones day. Hope to see u soon. Gambateh for our future.

New Uploading....

Long time din express my feeling at here.I hope this blog will be continue for forever.I don wan break the promise.Only here, the way tat i can contact wif u..only you knw my blog address.This few day, almost happy everyday,u treat me very good, very nice, i feel like i very enjoy in this relationship.I don wan end the relationship,can we continue the relationship???I really fall for u,only u can make my life become colourful,make me full of energy,make me feel wanna continue my life to end wif u.I don wan die,i wan be ur boyfren or hubby for forever.u...since u make the chocolate for me, i tell myself i mus trust u,can not betray u,must loyalty to u anytime,anywhere.i oso will trust u and wont jealous u anymore.Pls,believe me,i will prove it to u..really..dear..i love u..i miss u...muacks..

really sorry to u....really..

karen...i hv make a misstake....really...i not dare to lie u...but i ady done...no ppl can help me...i oso cant forgive myself...really..so sorry to u...hope u will understand me one day...i love u...

No more energy...too tired...

23,24 of March 2009

This two day, make me tired..feel wanna faint. i slep only 5 hours for two day. This two day busy help my fren for her wedding. haix...our best fren...married ady.feel like unbelieveable. But the truth is, this is real and ady happen. The day of the wedding24/03/09, all the fren mus wear the blue shirt or dress for tat day morning, feel abit weird, but quite good. i slep at 6 morning and wake up almost 7 something, we ave promise our fren tat we will attend at 8 sharp, but we are late but still early than other. haha, u all lose jor. At nite go for the dinner, at the dinner there have many leng lui lo. All nice and leng lui wan. i wish u all the best.Must gambateh do ur thing.we all will support u always.

Continue with the story.....

i stole the yloon diary..this is the content...

01-02-09

The first day without u…..make me feel like missing a lot of thing….no more direction in my heart, feel like missing many thing…wat I hv done I oso don knw…I become crazy and no mood…..i got intention to lie u….tat I off my phone…actually I lie u…I din off it…I hope u will msg me…when I knw tat u will come my hostel..i very happy..coz I can see u.when u come..i at down stair..i not dare to go up…I scare to see u….really….but when I go inside..i feel like no ppl wan talk wif me…all feel like wanna ignore me….so I jus came down …I miss u dear..really.. u make me have a lot of dream and hopes…but now….i no more hope…jus now when u bac u oso din say byebye wif me..Maybe u see me busy wif my stuff .But this make me feel very sad…this time no more chance ady….GOD..GOD..…pls make me more powerful...i need power stand up…I wanna stand up..First day live without u…got a bit uncomfortable…but wat can I do…this all my fault…jealous for wat…so stupid me…haix…I can face it..i can handle it….GOD…bless me….

02-02-09

Dear…I miss u a lot…..tat terrible wantan make me think about u….swt…I don wan think back but now I think back again….u make me feel like useless…I cant study …How???who can help me???god….god….u can help me???pls bless me and gv me power…I really need u dear…..this is the second day without u….hope I can forget u as soon as possible…But izit I can forget u….i oso hope so….U miss call me….i wanna call bac…but I din do….but finaly I oso do…swt…I cant control myself…who can help me….i no mood study …hope tml de paper I can pass ….when I call bac u…u just ask me wat I do.. where I study…I feel tat u very care this ..u din care me…wat can I do..i better don think too muc…the second day..make me feel uncomfortable….god…..Why u wan msg me….u make me uncontrollable to phone u….u make me miss u a lot….why???why u can look like ntg…but I cant ….i really miss u a lot…I wan u fetch me..can ???but how to tell u???how???how…hope tml de exam I can pass lo….god pls bless me…hope I can go through all the difficulty…the end of second day….

 03-02-09

Third day without u…how???miss u a lot la…can we together again….can god help me….no mood study …today msg a lot wif u….i don wan be fren wif u…I wanna be ur bf….for now and for forever…can???if got second chance….i hope u and me can change…hope really can change…today very happy….sms wif u….hope our relationship can continue….

 04-02-09

I sms wif u the whole day…I tink I hv chance ….hope u will gv me a chance…I will more appreciate our relationship …really hope got this chance…I hope u still love me….hahaha…I very love u….the fourth day without u….

 05-02-09

Today finis exam…..i hope to get ur answer….but u din tell me anything…I see ur msg..i knw terry gv u some present….so I ask u…but…the answer I get is very hurt..u say he gift u the present u wan..i very terrible….wat u wan I oso don knw…how????i don knw how to face u…hw???u teach me …I really don knw…I ask u wat u wan…u din tell me….u say nonit ...a moody day...

11-03-09

Today i saw u....like we don knw each other....haix....i don know wat can i do...maybe u always make something wanna me to jealous...but....i don knw ..i disappointed ady....i think i better give up.....god....i wanna U to bless me.....but i don knw how....u make me happy..make me sad....i finally get the feeling tat i wan...pain....but my heart more pain...really..

i will continue tell u all the story...u all have to be patient..

Sad...moody...not really can decribes...

Today i will continue the story....

Karen, the gal chat wif the guy,yloon in phone. The gal tell the guy tat wat she have told the guy last time is real, she realy regret to tell the guy the truth. The guy very sad because he thought tat the gal regret because hv such thinking, but actually the gal regret bacause too honest toward the guy. The guy ady no road can choose. The guy just keep silent and tell the gal he is ok and nothing. The gal keep asking the guy, the guy still keep silent. Finally, the guy don knw why, the eye become wet. The guy really sad, but no ppl can help him. Who can help this guy, only GOD can help. After they close the phone, the guy think seriously wat had happen to them. Wat he need to do is to settle the problem they facing. JEALOUS...look like small matter, but it has the power to make a pair of lover to break up. The guy need to change it if wan to overcome the problem. But when wanna to change, it is too difficult to do it or to make it. The guy now think whether want to continue to change or just give up. The gal tell tat guy she has the first mind to ask the guy to give up. This really make the guy sad. NOW...the guy is thinking wat he should do after today.

The story to be continue.....

Feel Like Familiar;Actually Is Strange

Story begin wif two people. One is karen....one is yloon.

Karen.....this name look very familiar for a guy,who name is wailoon. Every people oso knw tat this two people have close relationship but for the guy, actually the guy and the gal already have some distance between both of them. Only the guy knw tat they two already wanna go to the end. Everytime when the guy ask the gal whether the gal still have feeling to him, the gal always say don knw lo. This make the guy already give up and don knw wat should he do. The guy wanna people to lead him but no ppl wanna help him. He does not have any road to choose. As the poem"the road is not taken"  , say tat in front have two road, but the person don knw wanna to choose which road:wanna to try the new road or remain the same road. Finally, he choose the road tat his walk through everyday.This is because he scare that he will lost something in the end. By the way, many people oso will choose the same road, when find the true love, almost all people will try their best to do all thing in different way, different method to get their lover’heart. But, oso got people who already try thier best, they oso cant get anyting in the end. This will make people feel dissapointed and hurt.Continue wif the story, the two person wanna finis thier diploma in study, they will go for further study, the gal already decided tat she wil go to ‘U’ and the guy still don knw where should he go. The guy stil hoping tat the gal will invite or say out tat she wan the guy go together wif her to ‘U’. But the gul stil say tat she don wan the guy make the decision because of herself. Until now, the story still not end yet. The guy still waiting for the answer from tat gul.

The story not yet end....i will continue let u all knw when i knw the result....

swt....wat can i do....

11-03-09
Today i saw u,like we don knw each other.haix..I don know wat can i do,maybe u always make something wanna me to jealous,but i disappointed ady,i think i better give up.God,i wanna U to bless me.U make me happy,make me sad.I finally get the feeling tat i wan-pain.Although is stomach pain,but i ady satified.From the result,i knw tat heart pain is more than stomach pain.Wat is the decision i should do.I still don knw where should i go for further study.Maybe go KL i can forget u...i wanna forget u...